Chapter 14

Karkat had calmed down more since they had left the desimated town. Though he was still berrating himself for running away. Why did that scare me so much? What the ever-loving fuck is wrong with me? Stupid shitty nightmare. He looked over to the others, who were no longer as upbeat as they were before. The sight of the ruined village had darkened the mood quite substatially, and now only a few quiet words were muttered in between long stretches of silence. Most of the topics simply related to where they were going to sleep tonight and how far away the next town was. Karkat sighed, looking up at the sky. The stars above him twinkled endlessly in the blak abyss alongside the green and pink moon. It looked like the same sky he watched for the first six sweeps of his life, but it didn't feel the same. This sky didn't belong to him. The world he was walking on wasn't his. He wondered just how long he would be here. Would he end up being here so long that he was accustomed to living here? What if he never left? What would happen to his friends? Would they forget about him? Would it be better if they did? The last thought hit Karkat in a darker place. Maybe they'd be better off without me. What use is a failed leader to anyone anyway? He thought about Rose, and Kanaya, Dave, the Mayor...Gamzee.... Terezi. He wondered what she was doing now. Did she know he gone? Was she worried? He sighed again. Another thing I'm not good for-Relatonships. He looked over to Signless and Disciple, who were closely walking side by side to each other. The same itching envy crept back under his skin. How? How can he do everything I fuck up so perfectly? He just couldn't comprehend it. He wanted to know his anscestors secret of sucess. He wanted to know how he could do it right. Karkat knew it was pointless. He couldn't change the past. The most he could do was yell at his past self only to be stuck in an argument that most likely just ends with a big FUCK YOU on both sides. He really didn't want to suffer through that headache again. A bitter wind swept across the hills, making Karkat shudder and pull  his cloak further around him. "Feels like a storm blowing in." He heard Signless say quietly, almost to himself. Karkat looked out to the distance, where dark clouds were beginning to gather and blot out the stars. At that point, he didn't know which was worse; the approaching storm, or the gray clouds that constantly followed him and thundered negativity in his mind.